Voice of my lil heart

Tuhan silvie kangen.. kangen pagi2 menikmati kecerahan cuaca mu di pagi hari.

ngobrol2 sama Engkau sambil melihat awan di langit yg biru.

Tuhan, kau mengajarkan ku banyak hal. thanks ya..

God teach me, if u see people in hurts n pains, what u should do, is to hold, hug and give your full love to them. because that what I do when u are in pain.

God teach me to understand, that i was His fruit of patience. why? because he keep knocked and waited outside my heart and never give up on me. And now, here I am.

Touch by His unfailing love.

This is one of His million evidences of MAGNIFICENT plan in my life.

more i know You God, more i fall in love.

my perspective changes and renew day by day,

you changes me become just like you.

and when i realize this, i just can't help to falling deeper in You!

i love u soooo muchhh, that don't want to let you go in my life.

You know what the best time in my life? is when i encounter with YOU, GOD personally.

God, u are the first in my life

The first personal that touch my heart

The first personal that made me so madly in love with YOU.

The first personal that really understand me more than my self.

and every thing in my life, everything i have..

I give You the first and very best

this is the best smile for u, lord!

God, i come as i am

Kalau dibilang apa yang belum saya berikan Tuhan?

saya pasti berkata sudah semua nya saya berikan sama Dia.

pengharapan saya, cinta saya, hidup saya. semuanya saya rasa, saya sudah berikan.

tetapi saya tidak mengetahui bahwa ada hal yang belum beres dan belum saya berikan kepada Dia. tetapi Allahku mengerti ketidaktahuan saya tentang hal itu.

apakah itu? My 100 % TRUST!

Saya benar2 menyadarinya akhir2 ini. betapa susah nya saya percaya 100% sama Tuhan, sama orang, sama sesuatu.

saya takut. takut untuk dikecewakan, takut untuk disakiti.

kalau saya bs menggambarkan keadaan hati saya. hati saya tuh udah penuh dengan gerutan.

dan rapuh.

tetapi God, i come as I am. begitulah keadaan saya. keadaan hatiku Bapa.

terima kasih Tuhan, kau menyadarkan ku. kau mau memprosesku.

Air mata yang sekarang menetes karna baru menyadari

bahwa sebenarnya Tuhan sudah tahu hal ini sejak lama,

tetapi Dia menunggu Silvie untuk datang dan memberikan kepercayaan nya yang 100% sama Dia.

He waited and kept waited until now.

i just can say U alone that understand and know my heart.

i was so happy that i know and encounter with You personally. PERSONALLY!

Dan saya tidak mau berhenti sampai di sini. tidak mau menyerah akan smua proses ini.

saya mau maju dan terus melaju sampai garis akhir nanti.

saya mau membuat Engkau tersenyum bangga melihat seorang Silvie Hosea.

saya mau menjadi lukisan mu yang indah.

Do u know ?

apakah kalian tahu?

Apa yang membuat wanita menjadi lebih dewasa?

kesanggupan dalam memikul setiap beban hidup, pantang menyerah dan selalu bersyukur.

dan tahu everything gonna be allrite.

Bagaimana memiliki hidup yang indah & menginspirasi?

hidup yang di dalam nya ada Tuhan adalah hidup yang indah.

hidup yang mencari kehendak Tuhan adalah hidup yang menginspirasi.

Mengapa Tuhan lebih mementingkan proses daripada hasil?

Tuhan tahu saat kita berfokus dengan hasil dan memakai jalan pintas, hasil yang kita dapat akan cepat hilang.

~ get quicker, lost quickest~

Karna di dalam proses, karakter yang dibentuk,

dan kesuksesan tanpa karakter yang matang= kehancuran.

So, that's what God workin on each of us. PROCESS!

Mengapa Tuhan tahu seluk beluk hati setiap kita?

karna Tuhan pencipta kita. Tidak ada yg lebih mengerti alat yang diciptakan, selain penciptana bukan?

Tuhan bukan hanya tahu seluk beluk hati kita saja, tetapi Tuhan tahu semuanya.

Tahu mengapa dan tujuan kamu diciptakan. seberapa besar kapasitas mu untuk melayani Nya. because Our God is the greatest Thinker ever.

he created each of us differently, no one is same.

kangen nya sama blog & inet!

hadeh hadeh.. kangen banget sama internet. sama blog.

sudah 4 - 5 hari saya tidak mempunyai hubungan dekat dengan internet.

well thats good sbenerna. karna slasa dan kamis kemarin, saya ada exam.

spertina Tuhan mau membuat saya, lebih fokus. jadi tiba2 inet mati total hanya di tempat saya.

luar biasaa.. hahaha

saat saya di pesawat menuju Jakarta, perasaan saya biasa saja.

tetapi saat sudah bertemu papa, saya merasa ingin dan kangen banget untuk ngobrol2 berdua sama dia.

jadina saya makan dan ngobrol2 panjang sama papa di restorant yang tidak asing terdengar.

KOPI TIAM.

tidak di malay, tidak di jakarta, saya tetap makanan dan minuman nya sama.

tetapi kalau di indonesia, teh tarik na tidak semanis yang di Malaysia.

memang masyrakat Malaysia amat amat menyukai Gula!

dan sayangnya i'm not a big fan of sweet! :(

mengobrol, mengobrol dan mengobrol. waktu terasa cepat dan tidak terasa sudah malam.

perbicangan yang dibicarakan beragam.

papa sangat terbuka dengan smua topik, mungkin karna dia juga merasa sudah cukup besar,

dia mulai singgung hal tentang pasangan, dia memberikan wejangan2 yg bijak untuk saya,

anak perempuannya. hahaha.

saya merasa pemikiran saya sangat dibukakan dan diperluas.

senang deh, belajar sesuatu yang belum saya ketahui.

makasi papa.

Saya bangga mempunyai seorg ayah yang tidak perfect,

dan seorang ibu yang tidak perfect juga. dan melahirkan saya, seorg wanita yg tidak perfect jg.

so well, everybody have a weakness.

so i wont complain about that! but i will thankful to God,

becoz He gave me a unperfect parents to teach and love the way i am.

allrite.. thats all i have been doing lately.

so byeee. cu in the next topic :)

one in a million

i found a really really great song! watch it.

Neyo - one in a million

i really love the lyrics too! ehehehe

One in a million - Neyo

Jet setter

Go getter
Nothing better
Call me Mr. been there done that
Top model chick to your every day hood rat
Less than all but more than a few
But I've never met one like you

Been all over the world
Done a little bit of everything
Little bit of everywhere
With a little bit of everyone
All the girls I've been with
Things I've seen it takes much to impress
But sure enough you go it makes your soul stand up from all the rest

I can be in love
But I just don't know
Baby one thing is for certain
Whatever you do it's working
All the girls don't matter
In your presence can't do what you do
There's a million girls around but I don't see no one but you

Girl you're so one in a million
You are
Baby you're the best I ever had
Best I ever had
And I'm certain that
There ain't nothing better
No there ain't nothing better than this

You're not a regular girl
You don't give a damn about your look
Talking about I can't do it for you
But you can do it for yourself
Even though that ain't so
Baby cause my dough don't know how to end
But that independent thing I'm with it
All we do is win baby

I could be in love
But I just don't know
Baby one thing is for certain

Timing girl
Only one in the world
Just one of a kind
She mine

Ooh all that I can think about is what this thing could be
A future baby
Baby you're one of a kind
That means that you're the only one for me
Only one for me
Baby (girl) you're so one in a million
You are
Baby you're the best I ever had
Best I ever had
And I'm certain that
There ain't nothing better
No there ain't nothing better than this
Girl you're so one in a million
You are
Baby you're the best I ever had
Best I ever had
And I'm certain that
There ain't nothing better
No there ain't nothing better than this

seneng banget deh sama lagu n lirikna. gw bangettt.. kayana sih smua wanita akan senang mendengar saat dia dikatakan sama org yg dia sayang, one in a million! ya ga, ladies? hehehe.

one in a million. :D

woman is a color burst!

Terinspirasi dri lagu ini, saya membuat puisi pendek. saya sgt menikmati.

berharap kalian yg membaca, bisa mengerti pesan dari puisi pendek ini. :)

wanita wanita, mengapa kalian begitu luar biasa cantik?

tetapi kalian lupa akan kecantikan yang kalian punya.

mengapa kalian lupa untiuk bersinar dgn warna yang kalian punya.

wanita wanita, kalian begitu luar biasa.

mengapa kalian lupa untuk tersenyum lepas dan bahagia?

mengapa kalian lupa mengapa kalian diciptakan. untuk bersinar!

mengapa kalian menjadi redup. kemanakah sinar mu?

Firework - Katy Perry

what a beautiful song n lyric. sudah lama tidak menemukan lagu yang mempunyai lirik yang benar2 punya meaning yg bgs. Enjoy :)

lyric:

Do you ever feel like a plastic bag
Drifting throught the wind
Wanting to start again

Do you ever feel, feel so paper thin
Like a house of cards
One blow from caving in

Do you ever feel already buried deep
Six feet under scream
But no one seems to hear a thing

Do you know that tehre's still a chance for you
Cause there's a spark in you

You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July

Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby you're a firework
Come on let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gunna leave 'em fallin' down-own-own

You don't have to feel like a waste of space
You're original, cannot be replaced
If you only knew what the future holds
After a hurricane comes a rainbow

Maybe you're reason why all the doors are closed
So you can open one that leads you to the perfect road

Like a lightning bolt, your heart will blow
And when it's time, you'll know

You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July

Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby you're a firework
Come on slet your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gunna leave 'em fallin' down-own-own

Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
It's always been inside of you, you, you
And now it's time to let it through

Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby you're a firework
Come on slet your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gunna leave 'em goin "Oh, oh, oh!"

Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon

wisdom in relationship

heiii, i have new update. new knowledge. new inspiration.

its about relationship.

Tuhan ku yg luar biasa, mengajarkan banyak hal. termasuk hal relationship.

tepatnya kemarin Tuhan menguide ku..

Ternyata Tuhan mau Silvie belajar

TRUST, PATIENCE, ACCEPT THE IMPERFECTION and SELF CONTROL.

aku belajar bahwa, dalam yang namanya hubungan pacaran itu. Ga salah.

asal dua duanya fondasi nya sudah kuat. dan mreka sudah dewasa dan mengerti jelas

apa yang namanya hubungan yang berkomitmen. bukan cuma mengandalkan perasaan cinta saja.

dan tentu saja, wanita dan pria berbeda. dari fisik, perasaan, dan sudut pandang. Dan makanya, itu saya merasa saya sedang dituntun 'step - by- step' untuk mengerti hubungan yg berkomitmen yang Tuhan mau. siapa yg guide saya dlm hal ini? percaya ga percaya. Tuhan sendiri loh! amazing..

Tuhan beri saya kebijakan untuk mengerti jelas, apa yang akan diasah di dlm diri saya dlm relationship saya nanti:

1. Trust my partner to grow on his own. He needs my love, not rejection to grow.

secara ga sadar, wanita termasuk saya, kalau melihat pasangan nya tidak seperti yang kita mau, kita tergoda untuk meng'improve' mreka. jelas, maksud kita adalah sayang. tetapi bagi para pria, ternyata suatu rejection. dan dri situ lah saya belajar, to trust him to grow on his own.

2. Patience & Trust. Primary need every woman are CARING. BUT, primary need every guy are TRUST. kita ga bs mengubah pasangan kita untuk menjadi seprti yang kita mau. Let him learn on his own, what he needs to learn. And wait until he ask for your advice.

3. Accept his imperfection. let him know, he doesnt have to be perfect to deserve my love. even he did a mistake, let him know that forgiveness are there for him.

4. Not demand my partners will do same thing like i did for him. dgn kata lain, tidak menuntut.

Dan mnurut saya ini sgt bijak bagi para wanita dan pria, melakukan sesuatu dan berubah itu bukan untuk menyenangkan pasangan yang bersamanya saat ini. tetapi mreka berubah untuk kebaikan nya sendiri.

5. Not making decision for him. walau saya tau saya dominan, tetapi saya belajar penundukan diri sama Firman Tuhan, bahwa bukan saya yang mendecide apa yg dia harus lakukan ataupun memecahkan masalahnya. tetapi saya bisa membantu dia dengan opini yg dia bs jadikan consideration.

sehingga pasangan saya bisa bertumbuh dan itu lah yg Tuhan mau, bahwa pria menjadi kepala dan wanita menjadi penolong.

Thx God for the 'wisdom' , knowledge and direction. So i know what to do.

thx for showing me your greatness today : )

cry out

women's heart so hidden.

i think people that said it before, really true.

i felt only God understand me, only Him.

He also my first love. that can make heart beat so loud.

and i really secure and comfort with Him,

talk all day about everything i have been through, whether small or big things.

i love covered by His unfailing love. that He really understand my thought and inside my deepest heart.

my heart always waiting the time that we can spend and talk together.

God, dont seperate me with your abundantly love. don't ever let me go.

dont ever make me feel, no body cares and love me.

always remind me, that your promise will always for me to see.

that i'm precious in your eyes. and never ever stop loving me.

who's i got when everything nothing last forever?

friends? parents? mentor? our partner?

they can leave me, can disappoint me. but YOU..

YOU never ever leave me.