a song for my Super heroo

daddy, silvie mau buat lirik lagu buat Daddy. hehehe.

it calls Love

my life starts when i open my eyes

i felt my world is getting worse

everything seems wrong

i cried and shouted

where is God

why you let this happen to me

where are you when i fall down

did you see me now?

i'm hurt and tired

i felt my world is over.

and i prayed

God do whatever you want

and He did

he give me a smile

that can warm people's heart

he give me heart

that can accept and love others

he give me eyes that really can see

he show me how precious i am

how special me for Him

how deep His love

how hurt his heart when He saw me cried

thanks for your great love

i just wanna say thank you my Dad

you are my super hero.

you means a world for me.

hehehe, kayana kepanjangan ya kalau dijadikan lirik lagu.

ehehe.. but, it's special made for u,Dad. with tons of love and hugs.

enjoyyy :D

story time with my Daddy

Daddy,

akhir2 ini saya lagi baca kisah na Daud di 1 samuel. wowww!!

Silvie kagum bgt deh sama Daud. di alkitab sampai ditulis "man after my own hearts"

brati si Daud itu luar biasa bgt..

gilaaa.. gw bisa jatuh cinta sama Daud.

Dia berani, dekat bgt sama Tuhan, apa2 nanya sama Tuhan, sangat menghormati otoritas juga, sgt bergantung sama Tuhan.

wah, Tuhan.. Silvie juga mau donk dibilang kaya Daud.

This is my special women, my precious.

Tuhan silvie pengen deh dikasi cokelat juga sama Tuhan.

sweet things deh, ga usa box of chocolate.

may be a song, flower and morning kiss are enough. hehehe

silvie suka bgt disayang dan dicintai sama Tuhan. rasanya hangat di hati. buat silvie slalu pengen senyum. tau ga Tuhan, banyak org berkata bahwa senyum silvie memberkati, senyum silvie manis sekali, itu gigi na dirawat ya putih banget jadi kalo senyum manis apalagi ada lesung pipit nya. hahaha. padahal itu bukan lah penyebabnya.

padahal dari dlu seingat aq, ya bgtw aja loh Tuhan.

Tapi mreka kan ga tau, knapa aq bisa 'tersenyum'.

itu karna aq bertemu dengan Engkau, aq merasa diterima apa adanya, aq merasa dicintai dengan spenuh hati. itu lah yang membuat aq tersenyum dari hati.

aq seneng merasakan belaian Tuhan di rambut Silvie, pelukan Tuhan saat silvie merasa sendiri, sedih dan terluka.

Hanya Tuhan yg mengerti perasaan Silvie.

Silvie merasa saat Silvie blum mengenal mu, silvie buta.

buta knapa bkn dri dlu Silvie ga lari mendekat kepadamu. Padahal cinta mu itu lebih manis dari madu, lebih indah dari pemandangan yang terindah yg pernah ada, yg memberi kenyamanan dan kedamaian.

Dady, plis hold my life. stay close with me. run with me.

hug me when i fall and kiss me when i hurt.

thanks for everything. i will see greater than this:)

i'm running after you

Bring me back to YOU

yupp.. lets start..

many things can't be describe in words, but i want to write in my blog.

God u know people's hearts are weak. and i felt it. and u know how weak i am.

God u trust me, believe me.. that i can do it.

whether few times i fell and cried. u keep discipline me with your love.

how pain my heart when i hurt your heart and i know it.

i often stumbled in my way back to You..

i want to go near You, God. plis hug me God, give me feel secure in your hug.

i knew how it feels walking without You, do something outside your grace.

it feels empty..

You the only one can bring back my smile. only You..

Only You, know my deep inside my heart, can warm my heart.

You the only One that i can tell all my pain, my worry and my doubt.

You are my strength.

plis God, bring me back to you.

im nothing without You Lord, thats my declaration.

burden ,God's miracle and me

dengan tulisan aku bisa merasa lebih lega.

so plis let's me start..

sebenarnya dari kemarin aq ada keinginan untuk menulis. tapi tidak tahu knapa, i just dont feel rite. so i dont write..

kawan,

2- 3 days ago, i often complained..

sad and felt just wanna be alone to think.

now, i'm tired complaining!

seriously, complain is tiring ur soul.. (trust me, this is what i felt when i'm complaining)

Complain make u sad and pity with urself.

no new hope, no everything good.

everything seem not good.

i was rapidly through my day with asking, Why God, Why God.

my heart chained with a heavy burden.

but the other side, i always remind that God always beside me.

And before all this happen, He have told me, that He trust me i can through all of this.

He trust in me even He know i would say i cant do it God! but He trust me.

so why am i didnt trust my self?

u know what i'm feeling now?

i felt like throw out of the boat that i have been so comfort with.

i just realize Malaysia is my comfort zone.

and i didn't feel wanna leave. it's my boat!

but the same time, God did smthg that made me so sure..

He want me to stay in Indonesia this holiday. i thought He have a secret plan for me.

i still dunno yet, but i know, with all of pressure and process..

it would be spectacular plan for me. i just cant wait to figure out!! hehehe..

u see.. He gave me internship job here, he made i cant change my return date to malay.

He really insist me to stay!

how can i run? He block all my way.

and i dunno why, i just got the similar message when i read the quote/ tweet/ pastor preach..

it's all about:

a happiness is a decision not a feeling! ( really get me, when i feel sad)

"get out from your comfort zone, for Jesus sake"- John Maxwell

(its like scream at me, when my heart said plis go back to Malay, silvie)

see? i think i can't turn back. no way out. and i dont want to turn back too.

what i can do is just surrender..

Let your will be done.

God, plis give me your courage, support and joyful in my heart.

and now, i want to say ,"im ready! bring it on"

:D

understanding His plan

sometimes i amazed how got arrange who i will meet, who is gonna walking in my life.

can't describe because don't have exact words can represent what im feeling is.

i found many kind of people and thats make me learn and understand the differences.

every people have a similarity but not the same, each of them are very unique.

happy to know them. some make me learn to patience and more be understanding.

i love making a friend. may be God give me a gift to making a lot of friend.

i love that GIFT!! :D

but i also choose who is gonna my really really best friend,

that i can share and talk about my problem.

surprisedly, i found my best friend,

is the one i havent ever thought in my mind, we will be close enough to be a friend..

(apalagi best friend)

then what god turn my perspective. even though.. Her and I so different..

we complete each other as a friend. we support and learn to know what each other character.

you know, how strong the friendship can be test by problems that come over.

even we have cried, cold fight ( perang dingin), mad with each others.

but the end, we will be say sorry and thats make our friendship stronger than ever.

i learn to know exactly what she likes or dislikes, what is her character..

i know all that from 3 years friendship with her.

i trust, every people walk in my life, God have the reason.

even i didnt like that person.. and asked why GOD??

but u know sometimes God want to shape ur character through that

"u- asked- why- God- this- person- come- to- my- life"

and now, i'm realize. whatever the differences, just hold it for a while,

dont just turn away.. but HOLD IT FOR A WHILE, to see what God purpose through them for u. :)

N.T : i never regret for every person that come and go in my life. my junior & highschool friends and best friends, person who have hurt and break my heart, my first crush, my church friends, my mentor, my komsel friends, all people!!

My life it's special privilege, He gives to me..

so i enjoy it every second. :)

Voice of my lil heart

Tuhan silvie kangen.. kangen pagi2 menikmati kecerahan cuaca mu di pagi hari.

ngobrol2 sama Engkau sambil melihat awan di langit yg biru.

Tuhan, kau mengajarkan ku banyak hal. thanks ya..

God teach me, if u see people in hurts n pains, what u should do, is to hold, hug and give your full love to them. because that what I do when u are in pain.

God teach me to understand, that i was His fruit of patience. why? because he keep knocked and waited outside my heart and never give up on me. And now, here I am.

Touch by His unfailing love.

This is one of His million evidences of MAGNIFICENT plan in my life.

more i know You God, more i fall in love.

my perspective changes and renew day by day,

you changes me become just like you.

and when i realize this, i just can't help to falling deeper in You!

i love u soooo muchhh, that don't want to let you go in my life.

You know what the best time in my life? is when i encounter with YOU, GOD personally.

God, u are the first in my life

The first personal that touch my heart

The first personal that made me so madly in love with YOU.

The first personal that really understand me more than my self.

and every thing in my life, everything i have..

I give You the first and very best

this is the best smile for u, lord!