i didnt feel anything, special thing.. I feel flat.
i confuse what i gonna share for tommorow,
i have to change and change me for a better reason.
i dont wanna be ms arrogant who knows everything, in fact i didnt know.
i tired, i just want to rest.
rest for of all this battle.
battle in my self.
"ur best enemy that can bring u down, not other
but YOURSELF!"
so, hey dude! what the problem? u can ask me that.
i dunno. i just feel my self is soooo out.
arrogant? i think
sarcastic? a bit
but i try to give the best. i try to see, what is in my hand.
what is that??
i see a girl.. then?
i see a girl who didnt want to give up for her dreams,
her battle, and a bit restless and need help.
so why she didnt just rest?
yeah, i want to. sometimes i just want out of all this.
feel so free...
do u know where u get the things that u want?
mmm, i think i know..
My DAD..
Do u see HIM ?
i want to, i miss HIM. GOD, i miss you. i feel so auwful.
how this happen to me? i already know about YOU.
YOU like my sunshine and my refuge, u are my green pasture.
So, why u didnt feel HIM?
may be, it no everybody's fault, yeah.
it's my self. i made it myself. i think.
may be i already too high, can't hear clearly what others said below.
cant see clearly others people, i just see a human moving, talk, eat, etc.
haha, seems see a robot, huh?
i can't say. sometime i feel in my thought, people have a few mask, some people have more.
they cover their face with all the their smile, their kindness, their bad attitude, their hurt, their emptiness.
u see a lot, huh? i see a few.
i guess, people already tired of all this big world. God, are u sick see all this?
i guess, u already watch the beginning era, adam- eve, noah, david, until now?
YOU see the new generation coming and drawn into the same battle, some survive
some lost and dead.
such a tragedy that YOU see watch over and over again.
do u bored see this GOD? i wonder why if you not.
God, dont mad at me. dont leave me. hold me. i need u.
i need U as my green pasture.
ahhhhh, feel so relieve to write what i thought in my mind. haha
recently i feel my mind is like a mind map. Lols : 'D
